I have always loved the ability to "choose". Whether you are looking at life from a religious viewpoint, or some other form of existentialism... our ability as human beings to CHOOSE our path is what makes us great. We have the ability to choose when we get up... we have the ability to choose where we go... we have the ability to choose who we associate with...
My life has taken a few major turns in the past 6 months, and with those turns come choices. Do I go left, or do I go right? Is THIS the right direction for my life, or is it taking me further from where I truly want to be? Love them or hate them, I had to choose. Sitting stagnant is not an option for me, so in the left-right-left road of my life... I did, and AM DOING what I feel is right. Do I expect everyone around me to understand or even accept those choices? No. I don't care if you understand why I am doing something... and I really don't care if you like it... I am doing what I need to do.
I understand that there are some who will read this blog and have NO IDEA what is going on, but I am not going to air my dirty laundry here. If you want to know what is going on... ASK. Don't ask someone who you think "knows me"... ASK **ME**.
I knew from the start of this current journey that the drama was going to start. I knew that people were going to talk, having made up their minds before they bothered to find out the whole story. I knew that people were going to pick sides based primarily on emotion, and not based on anything "reasonable".
I don't have a problem with people picking sides... it's part of the situation. I don't have a problem with people talking about what is going on... word is going to get out eventually. What I *DO* have a problem with, is people spreading half-truths or blatant lies. If you don't know what the situation is, KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT! If you want to know what's going on, ask me. I am tired of people thinking that they know what is going on based on rumors, and then perpetuating those rumors... or worse... embellishing them with their own color and flare to make it more interesting.
I would have a lot more respect for the people talking if they would just come to me and say, "I think you are ____. Prove or disprove..." Then dialogue could begin. I could EXPLAIN what is going on, where I am at, both mentally and emotionally, explain how I got here... and we could move on with our lives. Instead these people feel the need to chatter amongst themselves, trying to understand what is going on without going to the ONLY person who actually knows. If we haven't been speaking extensively for the past 6-9 months... it is pretty safe to say you have no clue where I am at. The people that I TRUST know what's going on, and have been kept up to speed. If you have heard what is going on from someone else, especially if that person you are hearing from is someone I don't talk to on a regular basis... I can almost guarantee that your information is wrong.
I'm not ashamed of where I am at, nor am I ashamed of the path that brought me here. Do I have regrets... yeah. Hind-sight is always 20-20... but I am here, and I'm not going to try to undo the past because someone else thinks that I did something wrong.
The TL;DR version...
STOP TALKING SHIT!
If you have something to say to me... say it to my face. Feel free to get upset with me, I can take it. Feel free to call me whatever names are going to make you feel better when you walk away, I don't mind. Feel free to pick a side, and support your decision, but don't try to justify your side by starting rumors or spreading half-truths. If you can't do any of those things... forget you knew me and go away. We'll both be better off in the long run.
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